Monday, June 20, 2011

Not with a bang but with a whimper

I've pulled out of the race. It's been clear to me since Friday that I just wasn't getting better fast enough: I've been sick for more than two weeks already, I still feel really woozy when I walk around and have a deep reservoir of phlegm in the lungs and a cough that makes people on the subway edge uneasily to a further-away seat. I just saw my doctor: she's prescribed antibiotics and rest. Under other circumstances I might be more foolishly inclined to fight this reality (I have my share of stubborn idiotic endurance sporting ways in me), but in fact I am still just feeling so ill that there is no point even thinking about it. I've canceled the whole trip, I'll go and recuperate at my mother's house over the weekend (where I can console myself with the company of my little cat, who is staying there for the summer) and fly to meet Brent in Ottawa on Tuesday as per what would have been the next stage of our itinerary in any case.

It is a disappointment, but I will survive: at least I got some really good weeks of training in. It is very costly in dollars, unfortunately, but there is nothing to be done about that. Morale is very low, not least because of several weeks without exercise, but I'll hope to be back running again before too many more days pass - at this point it still seems inconceivable, horizontal is about the only position imaginable!

Ugh, feeling very low, but wishing all the best to those racing on Sunday - it should be a great day out there....

7 comments:

Becca said...

I am so sorry. Hope drugs and rest work magic.

Ironmom (Julie) said...

So sorry to hear it. Hope you feel better soon (but not better enough by race day to cause much regret, if that makes sense).

Spokane Al said...

I am very sorry to hear that things did not come together for you this time. I am certain an IM is in your future down the road.

Perhaps it is time to recover, enjoy training once again, and then race some shorter distances as you work to regain your mojo.

A previous IM CDA winner recently recommended that we be nice to ourselves on race day. I think that is good advice for race day, every day and especially on those days when we are a bit disappointed with life.

Take care.

carlsincharge said...

NOOO! Now you are breaking my heart.(Whimpers are better ... bangs are really overrated.) I was very much looking forward to cheering you on, but I completely understand listening to your body. I hope you heal soon! Maybe think about racing IM Cozumel ... I am!

Danielle in Iowa in Seattle said...

Aw. Do you think you will sign up for another or do you think you will take a break?

Black Knight said...

I am very sorry, please get well soon. Now it's time to enjoy a short period of easy training before starting to race again. Good luck.
Thank you a lot for the tips about the marathon. I will follow again this plan (4 weekly workouts):
http://cavnero.blogspot.com/2006/08/program.html
In 2006 it worked (3h 46' 35") but it happened one year before the incident.
Have a good sunday.

Black Knight said...

How are you? I hope that the things go well and you feel good. Have a good week end.